JOURNAL
WELLINGTON, NZ:
I keep censoring myself. I want to write more, more honestly, more passionately than I have ever dared to reveal (except to loved ones), but I have restrained myself. I'm not exactly sure why. Maybe I fear that my mom is reading my journal and I don't want to write something too revealing. Maybe I fear that once I write it, it'll come true. I can't put me finger on it. All I do know is that something incredible is happening inside of me and I don't have all the words to put the picture together. I don't have all the puzzle pieces. If it's true that we only use 10% of the capacity of our hearts, then I am wholeheartedly exceeding that in leaps and bounds. What an incredibly healing experience this whole trip has been. I sometimes stop dead in my tracks in disbelief at just how far I've come, just how far I'm willing to put myself out there, and just how much I've learned from taking this risk. Radical love is the freedom to love as many as you want, as many as your heart desires, and it's not just a novel concept. It's a lifestyle, it's a social movement, it's larger than me, larger than life, and couldn't stop it if I wanted to.
What a brilliant journey! see you soon, bursting with love, wendy-o
MARAMITI/WANGANUI back to WELLINGTON, NZ:
Just got back from a well-attended anarchist conference in Maramiti--amidst the gorgeous countryside and along the biggest river in NZ. Workshop was brilliant, and conversations with folks was engaging and lasted well into the late night. Too many highlights to list--extra squeezes to all the beautiful people who have opened their hearts to me. I am truly honored!
I'm back in Wellington for one more night of spokenword and one more workshop. I just finished a radio interview with Felix on Radio Active 89FM--so let's hear it for radical airwaves!!
Life feels limitless and ever-expansive. My heart is bursting with more love than I can possible contain, but I'm managing. I'll surely have heaps to give away when I return.
Stay close abd never doubt what you all mean to me!
XXOO wendy
WELLINGTON, NEW ZEALAND:
Rock climbing in Red Rocks with a new friend... how can I find the words to describe this beauty, my life cannot be summarized by the reflection of my face in the tide pools, but if you can imagine the the ecstatic smile on my face, right now, then you might have a miniature window to the ocean of happiness in my soul. I am at the edge of something spectacular and it's leaving me speechless, but ever hopeful. I am transformed by this journey. I am not the same woman who left the States. I am not broken. I am not damaged. I am more than the sum of my heartache. So Much More.
Something incredible is stirring inside, wish I could bring you all there...
And yet I have to believe that you are all there, in some way, we are all there if you believe it, if we allow ourselves to be vulnerable and open to be there.
Love is expansive and transcendent. Give in, Give it away, Give all you've got. I already have... XO wendy
P.S. HEAPS OF THANKS TO ALL THE INCREDIBLE PEOPLE IN AUCKLAND AND WELLINGTON--How did I ever get through my life without you all? I am surrounded by gorgeous people, and I am in true awe of your beauty!! Learning, Loving, Living, every day.... XOXOX
REPORTS FROM WELLINGTON, NEW ZEALAND:
Sometimes in life everything you have ever believed in simply aligns itself perfectly in the universe, and you know wholeheartedly that you are on the right path. There is something cosmically (& comically) fortuitious about teaching Love & Relationship workshops and then something undeniably sensational about meeting all the right people along the way who want to have meaningful and passionate connections too. I started this tour on the motto of "Smash Patriarchy 2003" but I can see that the goddess of love and tenderness and passion has something much more challenging in store for me... more heart-work, more love, more giving, asking more of myself than I thought was possible.
Love transcends borders. Believe it!!
Can you feel me near? XO wendy
